special rx

so i was watching special. that indi movie that is on demand. yea i like totally didnt feel like payin 4 it so i was jus watchin it online and it's like seriously pretty good. so i was watching it and then it like totally jus like DIED on me. it wont let me finish the fucking movie. i'm pretty upset bc i want to know what happens at the end. but apparently i shall not.... ughhhhh

but i did watch HAMLET 2 before. and if i must say. that movie was BRILLIANT! i fucking loved it. it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo funny. and if u saw that movie and didnt think it was funny then something must seriously be wrong with you bc it was the best. i like died laffin at sum parts. jus picture it, me sitting in a room by my lonesome jus watching the movie and cracking up so loud by myself. its just how bad asses roll. bad asses like me hahahaha

so i am like seriously abt 2 pass out. right. now. so nighhhttttt XD

me gusta taco? b-day gifts

okay so this is a list of birthday gifts i got (haha idk y i'm doin this but i feel like i should bc i dont want to forget what i got)

1- A giant picture of me with kewl effecs and quotes on it and it says happy birthday on it
2-40 bucks in cash
3-15 bucks fer target
4- an awsum retro hat
5-a hand made stuffed penguin (bc penguins are my favorite animals lol)
6-15 bucks fer iTunes
7- 2 hershys bars
8-a bag of mini 4 musketeers
9-a snickers bar
10-a milky way bar
11- a box of sum sour candy thingy thing lol
12- a bucket of popcorn
13-a cookie on a stick thing (in the shape of a penguin)
14- an oven mit (this one was very original hah)
15-more candy...the names of which i cannot remember lol
16-a bath set
17-bath and body works sprays and lotions
18- another bath set
20-a mix cd
21- talladega nights on dvd
22- a napkin (he 4got 2 give me a real gif so he got me a napkin. fom my kitchen ha)
and finally...he best gift ever...

23- A CHIA PET!

haha who even still owns a chia pet? hold on......oooo....yeaaa.... I DO! ha fuck all yall who dont have chia pets bc hey kick sum serious ass man jkjkjk but seriously chia pets r pretty shnazzy

but this wasn't like a random present, there is actually a whole story and a 2pg long note abt it

**this is my shout out 2 Mary Kathryn "Mark", thank you for being my sister and one of my best friends, i love you, and thank u for the wonderful chia pet, picture, and note. i was on the verge of tears. i love you my sister!!**

and i'm getting other gifts later from the ppl who 4got to give me gifts, i told them dont bc i seriously dont care. but they r all like nooooooooooo so apparently now i am getting a chinchilla. and i fucking love chinchillas man lol but my mom will b so pissed if i show up randomly havin a chinchilla. she rele rele rele rele wuld b. but watever. i'm not gunna turn down a chinchilla haha even i dont get the chinchilla it was seriously a very nice thought, and the dude at least remembered that i was talking about sum freaky lil animal that i wanted lol **my shout out to trae, thank u trae 4 being such a sweetie pie, that was so nice of u 2 even think abt getting me a chinchilla, wen u told me u wer thinkn abt it i was like awww there shuld b more ppl like trae out ther lol thank u trae. my pro water skiing buddy XD**

first in awhile

okay so i kno i havn't been blogging a lot lately but its midnight now and i thought i'd go ahead and blog a bit, just so yall kno wats been going on with me...2 keep it organized here's a list....

1) Failed a class
2) Turned 15
3) Got my permit
4) Had a party (close friends only)
5) Got played but got over it
6) I now apparently am having a New Years Eve party? its gunna b a GH battle. fun shit
7) I'm going to cut and dye my hair (agn)
8) I'm gunna get my hair dun as the same time with my fran.
9) My sister, her husband, and their dog are coming into town from boston today
10) I walked to kroger from my school and got beeped at like 5 times. ugh it was not fun

so yea that was pretty much all that has happened since my last entry but on the topic of guys i now jus have two main ppl in mind. I would say their names but they mite b reading this lol well its still one of the other guys from b4. the one who didnt have a gf. and the other guy was in my math class last semester. he couldn't make it to my party tho. it was a serious downer. i was so looking forward 2 him coming. well as a matter of fact neither of them came 2 my party. which made it a double downer. hmph well maybe they'll come to my GH battle ha who knows? anything can happen on new years :)

as a side note...

oh yea b4 i forget, i'm over one of the guys, the one that had the gf.

i'm leaving my options open and moving my goal of getting asked out b4 my bday to new years, it's only like two extra weeks.

not a lot but it could make a difference...

so yea that's all i needed to write abt b4 i fin my chores

o and if you haven't heard circus by britney spears...

listen to it, it's a super good song :D

i'll write more laterrr :)


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Q100 is the best

okay so since yesterday i've been pretty bummed abt the whole "ordeal"
but thank goodness the guy was a really nice guy and tried to make me feeling better by trying to convince me one of my other friends liked me. i was kinda watever abt it bc i knew that guy, and he wasn't into me, we r just rele good friends.

but anyways today i had to go to this stupid wedding shower....not fun.

and i noticed that i really don't like it when people get really into those stupid wedding themed games....

i found it kinda annoying...

so due to that fact i stuffed my face with wraps...

ahhhhh those wer the best thing abt the whole shower :D

so after that my mom and i headed over to costco for stuff bc my mom is a wedding decorater.

we wer on our way and i really wanted to listen to that song circus by britney spears...

its super catchy! so anyways....

i called in q100 (its a local radio station in ga) and requested a song and he was all like how would you like 4 free tickets to the ga aquarium? and i was like OH MY GAWD!!!

this whole "shock" came from the fact that no one in my entire family has ever won anything on the radio...

and i wasn't even trying...

so they did their thing and then wen i got on air...

i sounded like a complete loser!

u could hear me yell, "OMG MOM WE JUST WON 4 TICKETS TO THE GEORGIA AQUARIUM!"

ughhh that pretty much defined loser :((

but who cares 4 free tickets to the ga aquarium takes skillz haha

but now i have to go do chores :(( ughhhhhh...

but after i'm done, i'm heading over to mah besties house (laura)

i'll write more laterrr :))


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shit tacos!

OH MY FUCKING GAWD! okay so the first guy i mentioned i like....gahhhh okay okay okay here is the WHOLE story.....


kay so my bffl laur totally went ahead and askd him abt his feelings 4 me bc i wanted to know and i was too lazy to wait.

so asked him and shit and he was like...and i quote... "idk if i like her"

WHAT THE HELL IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?!?!?!

so that was the vaguest thing i've ever heard

so i asked like 10 of my best frans what they thought that meant...i got a plethora of answers...
from"oh he likes you but doesnt know how to tell u" to "he kinda likes you to kinda doesnt"

it was confusing.... sooo i just decided to ask him straight out...

i texted him and he said "well i'm kind of already seeing someone"

WHAT THE HELL SINCE WHEN??ughhh the least they could do is bring up their gf every once in awhile ughhh

continuing the conversation...

then i was like oh...

then he was like yea her name is airen (u spell her name E-R-I-N ughh) she's a sophmore i dont have any classes with her

then i was like what's her last name?

then he said ****** (i'm keeping her identity secret. for her sake)

and i was like omg i kno her! she's in orchestra with me, i'm her asst. principal

and he's like oh i didnt know she was in orchestra. that's hella funny

and im like lol yea she's like 10th chair i think

and he's like is that good or something?

okay and this is where i did not want to be all bitchy about another girl who has done anything to me so i was jus like....

well its 8 chairs behind me. i guess it all matters on personal goals and shit. i wanted to be in the front lol

okay yea that may have sounded kinda bitchy but to ppl who dont understand a musician's placement. they wouldnt know if it sounded good or bad...and plus this has been one hell of a fucking awful friday

okay so yea that's the end of the convo....for now at least. that was the last text i sent him....




UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH how much more frustrating can guys get...ugh i was totally hoping he'd ask me out b4 school ended for this semester which is conveniently placed on my birthday :D but yea that is apparently NOT going to happen.

UNLESS....he magically breaks up with his gf for me....yea that's deff not going to happen

but y the hell dus this kind of shit happen to me a lot....

High School is "supposed" to be different...

news flash to me: itz not

every single movie making high school look all awsum just became a big fat fucking lie! ughhhh i know they say don't believe what they put in movies but hell the media makes every single second of reality more and more unbearable.

well maybe it just isnt the movies about all the awsum high schooler-ness but maybe its what the media puts out there as the perfect guy.... guys like....

EDWARD CULLEN
example A, edward cullen, he is considered the perfect boyfriend. in every aspect he is. he brought back the common gentleman. he shaped MAJORITY of the united state's teenage girls' to believe there is such a guy like edward cullen...and worse. it was a book. and everyone knows NOTHING is better than the book :(( ughhhh


then on the other hand we have the perfect couple. the kind of relationship everyone wants.

RYAN GOSSLING AND RACHEL McADAMS in the notebook
this is the CLASSIC perfect couple movie. it makes girls cry bc itz so fucking sweet. so now everyone wants someone they can grow old with and have a relationship like that. maybe not exactly like it but it displays qualities of a relationship of two people who are meant to be 2gthr and everyone wants a piece of it....ughhhhhhhhhhh i love movies like this but i do blame it for making me such a hopeless romantic....


gah so now i'm going to go play my viola....i need to express myself....and it's the only way i can think of bc i've already written everything i can write abt this fucking friday......

stupid.
stupid.
stupid.
hopeless romantic...
me

guys...they shall lead to my early death

guys. they r the most frustrating things in the world. gah and i just so happen to be the one who falls for the ones who
1) end up being gay
2) are the BIGGEST players ever
3) are druggies
4) have a criminal record of some sort
5) are alcoholics

ughhh it sux, whats wrong with me???!! like at this moment i'm totally into 2 guys.

1st guy ***** *******
he is sweet, fun, and the fun to talk to in person :))
problem is, he's a double whammy. drugs and alcohol
he's a total bad ass
i find that strangely hot

2nd guy *** *****
one word. player. (at least that what he kinda comes off as)
he's hot (and i mean RELE HOT), the nicest and sweetest guy i've ever met, i talk to him every day, if i ever need to talk about anything he's ther fer me.
but some days he is the BIGGEST JERK. ugh he can be inconsiderate of other peoples feelings.
bc i'm like a sponge. the words u say = water
i, the sponge, will soak up all the words you say.
so he's pretty much the most misleading and confusing person ever.
but. he's pretty much like a drug. i've got a taste and now i'll never want to stop



these two guys have lead me to a high level of stress and an overwhelming amount of red velvet cupcakes (i stress bake. bad habit)

what's wrong with me? or wait better yet, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ALL THE GUYS I LIKE? do they have to be abnormally hot and sweet but with a different side

the perfect analogy is... u know those tootsie pops?? okay well wen u first get it u love it, love everything about it! but sooner or later you'll get closer and closer to the true candy within. the tootsie roll. and no one really likes the tootsie roll in the middle. sure u will tolerate it and still eat it but like you wish it wasnt there and you want to ignore it. but the tootsie roll will always be in the center of that damn tootsie pop no matter what the hell you do.

good analogy eh? :P

i'm just good like that.

well i'm going to go pass out on the couch now bc im just so amused that survivor is still on tv and still not good haha