guys...they shall lead to my early death

guys. they r the most frustrating things in the world. gah and i just so happen to be the one who falls for the ones who
1) end up being gay
2) are the BIGGEST players ever
3) are druggies
4) have a criminal record of some sort
5) are alcoholics

ughhh it sux, whats wrong with me???!! like at this moment i'm totally into 2 guys.

1st guy ***** *******
he is sweet, fun, and the fun to talk to in person :))
problem is, he's a double whammy. drugs and alcohol
he's a total bad ass
i find that strangely hot

2nd guy *** *****
one word. player. (at least that what he kinda comes off as)
he's hot (and i mean RELE HOT), the nicest and sweetest guy i've ever met, i talk to him every day, if i ever need to talk about anything he's ther fer me.
but some days he is the BIGGEST JERK. ugh he can be inconsiderate of other peoples feelings.
bc i'm like a sponge. the words u say = water
i, the sponge, will soak up all the words you say.
so he's pretty much the most misleading and confusing person ever.
but. he's pretty much like a drug. i've got a taste and now i'll never want to stop



these two guys have lead me to a high level of stress and an overwhelming amount of red velvet cupcakes (i stress bake. bad habit)

what's wrong with me? or wait better yet, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ALL THE GUYS I LIKE? do they have to be abnormally hot and sweet but with a different side

the perfect analogy is... u know those tootsie pops?? okay well wen u first get it u love it, love everything about it! but sooner or later you'll get closer and closer to the true candy within. the tootsie roll. and no one really likes the tootsie roll in the middle. sure u will tolerate it and still eat it but like you wish it wasnt there and you want to ignore it. but the tootsie roll will always be in the center of that damn tootsie pop no matter what the hell you do.

good analogy eh? :P

i'm just good like that.

well i'm going to go pass out on the couch now bc im just so amused that survivor is still on tv and still not good haha